As of today it’s T-7 days before When Words Collide begins. This will be my 5th year attending—I’m surprised by that after counting on my fingers. The adage is true: time flies.
I still have to carefully plan which panels I want to attend. I can’t say I’m behind since I normally figure it out around this time since neither me nor the organizers are ready to go sooner. This year I have to be especially cognizant because I don’t have time off work right after the con like I normally do. Plus I have a mountain of things to do before it, and likely during, which isn’t unusual at all.
Months ago when I realized I had to a better planner and pickier attendee, I felt a sense of relief. The exact opposite of what I expected to feel. Why? I realized that a few of the panels I normally attend overwhelm me.
No, I don’t get information overload or a sense of confusion. They’re usually very informative panels about things I should think about after having a completed product.
Repeat: After having a completed product.
I’m beginning to wonder how much the thought of marketing, branding, platform, audience, and so forth, has undermined my ability to create that finished product. Knowing how much work I’ll have on my hands after the hard part is over is daunting. I feel like learning this information ahead of time has washed away some of the idealism. And I seem to be a writer who needs that idealism.
This year, I want to focus on writing specific panels. I’ll save the rest for when I’m ready to publish. I need to get back to my starry-eyed writing days. I produced more, and it was a lot more fun.